+ Thanks!! LOSER!!! // Thursday, January 21, 2010
Is been almost a month now, after the idiotic 'I DUN WANT YOU ANYMORE' breakup.. this is a nice phrase!!! haha.. can't believe i actually said that.. I DUN WANT YOU ANYMORE...
oh well, 4 months ago, u came into my life without any warning. i took it as a pleasure. what else can i do then?? i was way too tipsy to remember what was going on that nite.. i had my merdeka eve party like a rock star.. u asked the lamest question ever, CAN I HAVE YOUR NUMBER??? i was like, what number do you wan.. eventually i gave in, u had my number.. but too many numbers in one nite, i seriously dun remeber you guys, just a bunch of funny names in my contact list, still sorry people, you guys still having weird nickmanes that i gave you guys.. haha
and yeh, u made u move, u hold my hand for the first time.. i felt so empty.. but jack was like, if you really like him, gave urself a 100% in.. cos Jack doesn't wan me to be like his ex too.. which is the other stories.. so, i tried.. but things were nice at first.. but u?? wow!! i can said, nice dramas, nice show that u had put on.. everyone around me totally eat it n digest it well.. even my dad!!! unbelieavable..
what the purpose that u kept saying you're sorry and you dun even feel sorry at all, saying sorry is not about everything.. after buying my gifts as replacement?? nah, i dun want to.. but youy kept giving, so i keep taking.. a waste that i dun keep it.. right??
obviously, u dun know me at all... i bet you dun even know my chinese name till know (well, people around me hardly know it too).. all this while i was quiet around you while you were talking to your frens in alien language, u think i have no clue at all?? too bad, i do understand it.. yes, i might be the nerd that loves bookshop than clothing.. i just love those boks than everything.. i tried to step into your life, you shut the door in front of me.. leaving me hopelessn helpless.. and the fat arse that you consider a friend?? tell you what, u betta watch out cos he's just a fat arse who can't bear to see all his friends got attached and try to sabotage everything cos he's too timid to bear a single life for ages... well to go, fat arse, u did your part by telling me you have no clue about the shit that happened around you.. and what's the hint for?? huh?? ask yourself...
i'm sorry that this is an angry post.. but i can't help it, i'm angry cos i dunno wat was wrong in the situation, you said I LOVE YOU all the time, i totally believe it.. which makes me stupid cos normally i dun take it seriously at all... the first time i ever dated a chinese guy, the first time this loser gave me so much troubles...u torned my heart into pieces, but all the pieces that u had crumbled, all the my friends and family that really do care picked up the pieces that puzzled it up..
I'M FINE NOW... supposingly i'm doing good now, all the hiding n running away dramas going to end soon, i'm coming back...
WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND...
you'll see, you'll know...
thanks for making me so much stronger and tougher!!!
fyi, you totally ruined my favourite month, not only my birthday also the entire month...
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